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The Reunion: Twin Flame Photo Concept.

“The Reunion”

Twin Flame Theory Concept Shoot

“The Beginning: two star seeds” through multiple lifetimes to “The Reunion”

A Concept by Aryn Elaine Cole & Jennifer Santaniello.

This photo series depicts two souls and their journey back to wholeness and each other, their Twin Flame reunion. This series has been birthed out of the desire to bring awareness to the Twin Flame theory. Equally, a significant intention by the creators and talent of this photo series, is the intention to bring forth the energy and depths of which we all can love — while making our journey towards oneness.

The theory of Twin Flames will challenge everything we have been taught to think, feel and act about love and what it means to love and be loved. For those who have yet to be introduced to the idea of Twin Flames, one’s mind may automatically jump to the definition of a soulmate. And, to a large degree, one’s initial reaction and feelings towards this topic will be based largely on his belief system towards love, his life experiences in love and his working ideas of love as a whole. However, Twin Flames aren’t nearly the same as what most of us as a society have come to believe a soulmate relationship to be. Twin Flame relationships differ greatly in that they reflect and encompass pure, limitless, eternal, selfless and charitable love. They help us to understand the reasons we are alive today. Even more so, this reunion helps to explain who we are, where we come from and what our journeys here are truly all about. This differs from our soulmate relationships, in that soulmate relationships are here to help us evolve to a place where we are ready to reunite with our Twin Flames.

It is the belief that through our many lifetime experiences and soulmate connections, we begin to awaken to self and we come into our spiritual awareness. This then inspires us to question, and begin to throw away our false beliefs surrounding fear-based and ego-driven relationships. It is the ultimate lesson and acknowledgement of unconditional love. Once we begin to think, feel, and act in this way, we set the stage for our Twin Flame reunions.

In theory, Twin Flames start as one energy form, one light, one spirit, dividing into two – which then allows them to incarnate into multiple life experiences. Though it is believed that these Twin Flames/Souls rarely incarnate within the same lifetime, it is believed that commonly our Twin Flame/Soul acts has our higher self in the spiritual realm, guiding us. This occurs so that we can learn, relate to one another as different genders, cultures, nationalities, races, and families. This helps us to create opportunities to learn, remember our divine origin, and to ultimately seek reunion and oneness. Twin Flame reunions are an integral part of the divine cosmic plan.

"The Beginning: two star seeds"

“The Beginning: two star seeds”

"Illusion of Doubt"

“Illusion of Doubt”

"Survival Through Higher Self"

“Survival Through Higher Self”

"The Reunion"

“The Reunion”

Please visit the link below which will bring you to my other post about Twin Flames/Souls:



Feel free to contact me with any questions!


❤ Love and Light ❤

Models: Aryn Elaine & Natti Vogel. (Aryn ColeNatti Vogel)

Photographer and blogger of “Twin Flame” theory: Jennifer Santaniello. (Jennifer Santaniello’s Art)

Hair/Make-up: Chris Oleary. (Chris Oleary)

Fine Jewelry: Anothai Hansen (Anothai Hansen)


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© 2015 by Jennifer Santaniello







Food Therapy – A Raw and Vegan Way of Life

HELLO Beautiful Souls!

  I wanted to share my “new” endeavor with all of you amazing people!  My endeavor is not new in that I have been working for this my whole life, but the WordPress blog to support it is new and I would LOVE to see you all there enjoying all that I have to share.  It is called Food Therapy – A Raw and Vegan Way of Life and encompasses my journey through eating and living Vegan and Raw and my intentions to one day have a Vegan establishment, so that I may share my love of the food and lifestyle with as many people as possible.  On this blog I will be sharing recipes, information and much more!

Come visit!


Chickpea Salad F

Love and light to you all!!!!!!!!


❤ ❤

The Shame Is Not Yours.

“Safety and security don’t just happen, they are the result of collective consensus and public investment. We owe our children, the most vulnerable citizens in our society, a life free of violence and fear.”

-Nelson Mandela

The Shame Is Not Yours, It Is Theirs.

A year and a half ago I started a journey, one of a lifetime that has led me dead center and me steadfast into what is shaping out to be the height of one of my major destiny points.  The soul work it took to get here cannot be described by words.  Interesting enough, through all of this self-work what I have found is what I have suspected all along.  It isn’t about me, it is about us.  Us, as in you and I and this entire universe.  I had my opinions but through this work I have come to realize indefinitely that our society is only as strong as our weak, our sick and our deprived.   What I mean by this is if we allow those who need help, those with mental, emotional and physical illness to remain under the radar without appropriate aid, if we continue to turn a blind eye to those creating and responsible for this trauma, we as a society will continue to suffer immensely as a whole.

In the last year and a half I have now worked in residential homes for persons with HIV and AIDS, mental illness and substance abuse.  I currently work with children of all ages who have suffered severe trauma and as a result have severe mental, emotional, behavioral, developmental and physical disabilities.  As well I now work with adult males in one of the largest jails in the world.  A commonality the individuals I have worked with and currently work with have is their history of abuse, specifically sexual abuse.  At this point I have met with hundreds of individuals in various settings and all of them have had a history of some form of abuse.  The more I work the more I find I have a common message for each individual I have come to work with, a phrase.  It is the same for all of those who never had a chance at any semblance of normal or healthy.  The message is, “The Shame Is Not Yours, It Is Theirs And It Is Not Your Fault.”


However, it’s rarely that simple.  Therapeutic bonds take time; sometimes it takes weeks, months or years to develop the trust needed for someone who has ensued trauma, to believe that kind of truth.  The truth that they didn’t ask for the pain or the betrayal at the hands of someone they often trusted.  That is wasn’t anything they did but rather a serious injustice forged upon them to hold by another who in all probability suffered trauma in their own right at the hands of another.  It is a vicious cycle and the culprit is our silence.  At some point in life we are all guilty of remaining silent at the expense of someone who needed our voice.  However this post isn’t about setting blame but it is more of a request, a plea rather, for all of us to become united as a society, to care, to care enough to speak up for ourselves and for those who have trouble speaking for themselves.  We can sit for hours and discuss the betrayal we suffer daily by our broken system of justice, metal health and so on, but unless we back our words with action towards change we will continue to be bystanders.  The only way to successfully see positive change is to become apart of it with the positive message that we will not stop until it gets better.


I believe that lack of information is a contributor to people’s indifference.  As I became more educated at the horror people have experienced and experience everyday, my empathy and compassion grew along with my will for change.  That will became action and an intent to create more change in my life and the lives of others, and now this has become a huge part of my life’s work which will grow even bigger and bigger with time.

Some of the truths I have learned were hard to believe, but that was my personal problem because whether I believed in them or not didn’t matter, these atrocities are happening everyday, every minute and every second.   Nearly five children die every day, EVERY DAY, just in America alone from abuse and neglect.  Children are suffering from a hidden epidemic of child abuse and neglect. Every year more than 3 million reports of child abuse are made in the United States involving more than 6 million children.


General Statistics

•   A report of child abuse is made every ten seconds

•   More than four children die every day as a result of child abuse.

•   It is estimated that between 50-60% of child fatalities due to maltreatment are not recorded as such on death certificates.

•   Approximately 80% of children that die from abuse are under the age of 4.

•   More than 90% of juvenile sexual abuse victims know their perpetrator in some way.

•   Child abuse occurs at every socioeconomic level, across ethnic and cultural lines, within all religions and at all levels of education.

•   About 30% of abused and neglected children will later abuse their own children, continuing the horrible cycle of abuse.

•   In at least one study, about 80% of 21 year olds that were abused as children met criteria for at least one psychological disorder.

The estimated annual cost of child abuse and neglect in the United States for 2008 is $124 billion.


Child Abuse Consequences

•   Abused children are 25% more likely to experience teen pregnancy.

•  Abused teens are more likely to engage in sexual risk taking, putting them at greater risk for STDs.

My focus thus far through art therapy has been to work with those who have suffered trauma.  I cannot stress this truth enough, that almost every single patient, client, inmate and student I have met with that suffers from a mental, emotional or physical illness or developmental disability has at some point in their life experienced trauma, predominately sexual trauma.  Researchers have found 1 in 6 men and 1 in 5 girls have experienced abusive sexual experiences before age 18 and that is a low estimate since it doesn’t include noncontact experiences, which can also have lasting negative effects.  This means that at any given moment, if you are in a room which holds 6 men chances are one of them has been sexually abused in some form and the same for girls.  When you think of it in this context, the reality is appalling and completely unacceptable.  The consequences of these injustices, especially upon our children have severe consequences for all of us.  The patients I work with within a jail setting have mental disorders, which have played large roles in their violent and unlawful acts.  Many of these crimes committed could have been prevented if there was a system that was functional in helping those who are mentally ill.  Not just those who have money, or insurance but those who have nothing left to give.


Child Abuse & Criminal Behavior

•   More then 14% of all men in prison and more then 36% of women in prison in the USA were abused as children, about twice the frequency seen in the general population.

•   Children who experience child abuse & neglect are about 9 times more likely to become involved in criminal activity.

“In a study of young adults who suffered child abuse or neglect, 80% met criteria for at least one psychiatric disorder by age 21, including depression, anxiety, eating disorders, and suicide attempts.

In a U.S. Department of Health and Human Services study of homeless youth, it found that 46% of those surveyed had escaped a home where they suffered physical abuse, and 17% left because of sexual abuse.

Young people who were victims of child abuse and neglect are 25% more likely to experience teen pregnancies, delinquencies, and to suffer mental health problems. They are more likely to perform lower in school, to engage in high-risk sexual behavior, and to use alcohol and illicit drugs.

According to a National Institute of Justice study, abused and neglected children were 11 times more likely to engage in criminal behavior as teens, are 2.7 times more likely to be arrested for violent and criminal behavior as an adult, and are 3.1 times more likely to be arrested for one of many forms of violent crime.

As adults

Adults who suffered child abuse and neglect can develop allergies, arthritis, asthma, bronchitis, high blood pressure, and ulcers, in addition to other physical disabilities because of poor health caused by the abuse.

Child abuse and neglect have been associated with panic and dissociative disorders, attention deficit and/or hyperactivity disorder, depression, anger, and post-traumatic stress disorder in children and in adults who suffered abuse.

Adults who were abused or neglected as children are more likely to abuse alcohol or drugs during their lifetimes. A study found that as many as two-thirds of individuals in drug treatment programs reported being abused as children.

Continuing the cycle of abuse

Researchers estimate that one-third of abused and neglected children will grow up to abuse their own children when they become parents.”


It is one thing to read about it, but through my work I have been witness to these statistics myself.  It is disheartening to see this first hand, but now that I have found art therapy and am witness to the incredible impact it has on so many every day, I know I have made the right choice in choosing a modality that can help bring about change and heal those willing to receive.  Every action towards a change in our system of recognizing the injustice preformed everyday is an action towards a better day for all.  Even if that action is speaking out, sharing this blog or having a discussion about what’s happening.  It can be uncomfortable and a lot of people may not want to hear about it but that is too bad, because those of us who are set on creating change are seeing it through, no matter how uncomfortable it may be for others or ourselves.  If the injustices of others is a soft spot for you, especially those victim to physical or emotional abuse, know that you are not alone.  There is an army of us fighting this good fight and we need more, will you join us?

“The World is my country, all mankind are my brethren,

and to do good is my religion.”

 Thomas Paine


Love and Light,


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The Power Of A Year.


A year ago this month, this blog was birthed, along with a new and most beautiful part of my life and awareness. As well, I’ve had the privilege of meeting some incredible souls through this experience that have helped to change my life in the most incredible ways. When I write, when I create art, I do so with my full heart and spirit, with the greatest intentions, the upmost respect, honor, gratitude, love and light and I want to thank you for allowing me into your lives, hearts and minds. It has truly been a blessing and an honor.

I now know what it feels like to be part of a community of artist, philosophers, scholars, teachers, writers and creative geniuses whose intentions are to better the world and themselves through their hearts passions. As importantly, thank you for sharing your love, light and words with me, they have inspired me and undoubtedly allowed me to expand as a writer, artist, healer and human.

I wish every last one of you complete love, inner peace, and light. May we continue to share and aid each other along this incredible creative journey!!!!!!!!

❤ All of my love and light ❤

**Photo Credit: Persephone Awakening by Zabani**

I Trust You.


“Trust each other again and again. When the trust level gets high enough, people transcend apparent limits, discovering new and awesome abilities for which they were previously unaware.”  ~ David Armistead – Professor

A child is born with a knowing, an inherent trust, a love that is either both reinforced and nurtured, or stunted, unmet or even denied.  A child is born with the capacity of encompassing complete and utter trust for everyone and anything.  Its faith is birthed with its inception; it’s first heartbeat and breath.  If a child is raised with a family that has reinforced this preexisting state, this inherent trust then the child will live, move, act through this belief system, for it is given no other reason to believe otherwise.  I was reminded of this while playing games with my baby cousin of 18 months.  It became apparent to me that no matter what, she knew I would catch her, as she would leap into my arms off the bed.  Even with my back turned and in running distance, she knew I would do absolutely anything possible to be there as she leaped forward.  She never expected anything less.  She trusts me with her life completely.  This kind of love reaches deeper then any root, stretches farther then any horizon and lasts far beyond any one lifetime.

What of the kids that have never had this reinforcement?  Those who do not know what it feels like to have a love and trust behind them, to know that if they jump and when they jump there will be someone there to catch them no matter what.  Through my work I have observed the life of children who were never given a chance.  Whose pure and inherent trust was lost, when the hands expected to catch them, did not.  On the streets we see it all of the time.  I have had this discussion many times, it seems we are always privy to public displays and situations where children are being mistreated, yelled at, and cursed at, spoken down to, beat, and much worse. Many times these children are less then 8 years old.  If these parents are performing and treating their children this way publicly, can you even dare to imagine what goes on in their private lives?  Freighting.  The hurt, embarrassment and long term emotional damage is inescapable in these cases and leads to a future string of emotional and physical abuse for the innocent who have no idea how to process such harsh mistreatment and injustice.

We are the builders of our children, our children’s children and all of those connected.  We are co-creators of their character, their judgment of themselves and others, their measure and value, we help to create the system in which they use to walk through their lives and most importantly we help to build their beliefs and experiences of love and trust, not only for themselves but for all those around them.  It is our responsibility, and what many refuse to acknowledge, our privilege to nurture and raise each child with the knowing that they are eternally loved and capable of absolutely everything.

When we choose love, we are actively building a nation of children that will help to end ailments, war and many other injustices.  What so many choose to ignore is that, it starts with us.  People find it hard to conceive that we hold that much power, but we do.  These innocent, trusting children are built with everything needed to come out as pure light, loving to the up most capacity.  It is up to us to hold that light and love for them so that they can reach higher and go further then all who have come before them.

We hold the power, I trust you, I trust that you will do the right thing and love each child wholeheartedly.

“When a family is free of abuse and oppression, it can be the place where we share our deepest secrets and stand the most exposed, a place where we learn to feel distinct without being “better,” and sacrifice for others without losing ourselves.”  ~ Letty Cottin Pogrebin – Editor, Writer

Please, if you ever witness any injustice towards any child, report it, you will be saving lives!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Links below to those helping fight and save our children:







Love and light,

~ Jennifer

**Photo credit – http://www.multiculturalchildren.org/project-introduction-overview-2/**

Full Circle.

When we follow our hearts, when we are truest to our soul, we come to realize that our deepest wounds along with our most challenging events in life become our greatest assets.  In refusing to give up on others and ourselves, what seemingly harmed or plagued us has the potential to morph into our souls work, our mission, and our purpose.  If we are fortunate enough, we can help and teach others through our toughest life lessons.  Sometimes we are able to see our past, our struggles and pains in the people we grow to love, to teach and help.  This can bring us affirmation that every hardship, turmoil and emotional beating meant something, that it had meaning, the best really.  In essence we are able to feel as though we have come full circle, having rose up above our pain and confusion to help others do the same.

My dear friend Rod has done just that, and has blessed us with his lessons through this letter and article he has written.  My desire is that each of you reading this benefit in multiple ways, from his incredible story, experiences and words and that you pass this on to all you feel will benefit from his story.

“My baby girl was upset on the ride home, it’s too detailed to post, but I heard it in her words that she was being ’round-a-bout’ something. As soon we got home I asked, “Did you wish your dad had called you on your birthday?” She curled up into a small ball fell into my arms and cried. She just wanted him to call to show that a small part of him thinks of her, her words. That’s all. She’s been trying to be so strong and keeping it together for so long that in one question, the weight of that answer flowed out in hot tears uncontrollably.

Before this day I often imagined what I would say to my younger self to make him understand why his father wasn’t there for him. I was granted my wish. I saw so much of myself in that instance that I felt that I’ve come full circle. Thank you.

She’s such a beautiful young lady (annoying most times!) but so beautiful. I can’t understand how people can’t muster up the courage to see their kids? Just show up. It means the world to them. They can be loved by the entire world, but they will never see that if the very people they want love from don’t even acknowledge their existence.

Stop being cowards

Show up

Take your licks and take them out

Kids don’t understand the value of money

They only understand the value of attention

Just love them”

by Rod Perez

Thank you Rod, for sharing this and allowing me to post an article about your personal experiences and writing.  Thank you for being so selfless, for transcending and rising above the pain so that others may heal as well.

Please find a similar and detailed article below, written by the incredible artist and writer Rod Perez.  As well, please visit Rod’s artist link with all of his mindful and beautiful art, enjoy!

Effects of Absentee Fathers on Boys Article:


Rod Perez

Rod Perez’s Art Link:


All of my love and light,

~ Jennifer

 **Photo Credit: Art piece by Rod Perez**

A Story of Light Facebook Page.

Hello all of you beautiful souls!  I have created A Story of Light Facebook page and would love to share it with you all!

A Story of Light blog and Facebook page have been created out of the desire to assist all souls in their mental, physical and spiritual evolution. In addition to the blog postings, I will be posting quotes and bits of creative and intuitive knowledge daily! Enjoy and I look forward to each and every interaction with all of you beautiful souls!


♥ Love and Light ♥

~ Jennifer

Out With The Old, In With The New?



Commonly, each year millions of people eagerly set goals and resolutions for the New Year, which I believe to be a wonderful tradition. It is healthy to always reach higher; it reminds us of where we are, where we are going and where it is we intend to be. As well, I believe envisioning and setting forth our greatest intentions are key manifestation techniques at their finest. What doesn’t sit well with me is that New Year after New Year with certain mainstream advertising and shared company gimmicks we are asked to, “start over!” Or “start a new life!” To forget the old and start the year off as a new person! Why is that and what if I don’t want to start anew? I have a sh*t load of hard work behind me, we all do! Many choices were good and some were really bad, but it has led us to where we are today, which is exactly where we need to be. We are where we are because of every single choice, every single thought and action we have made and so I am not willing to throw that away. It is as if so many force Dissociative Amnesia with the start of a New Year and move forth with the intention to ignore what came before. However, for any who have tried this know, it is never truly possible. For those of us that have created positive change, including myself, it is because of all of our past experience and life’s hard lessons and there is beauty to be found in that. Everything has its time and the more we try to force change the opposite occurs, stagnation. Most view time as linear, but really time is cyclic. What ever has plagued us in the past, whether it is our broken relationships work or personal, abuse of substance or eating and even illness, will find its way to us until we work through it regardless of how many “New Years” we begin.

Starting anew doesn’t come with a date on the calendar, it comes within each of us the minute we realize our own power to create the change we need and desire. We don’t have to wait for a special time of year to create and become who it is we see ourselves to be. True change comes in realizing our gifts and the enormous power behind our every word, thought and action. Everything we do sets forth a ripple effect, this is something we should never want to escape for it is where we learn our most significant lessons. It is in these cycles that we are reminded of who it is we are, it is what gives us the strength to change and become our brightest selves.

2012 was a year of transformation and growth, and moving into 2013 many of us will now hold the keys to integration and balance. We are all in the process of releasing a long, long cycle with the beginning of this New Year. I myself have recently come out of an old cycle that began to self-destruct last June. Since then, I have found my hearts true passion and in doing so and taking action, it has set forth a string of incredible happenings and meetings. With so many of us entering into a new cycle at this time, we are beginning to look at ourselves, our relationships and the world around us very, very differently. It is as if the blinders have been taken off our eyes. We are realizing that the situations and people of our past are actually not what they appeared to be and although there is a sadness attached to this, we are evolving into a very, very new energy. Many of us in the next few months will begin to feel grounded and begin to feel our power more then we ever have.

Within our deepest relationships we are ready to let go of the mental fatigue we have had in all areas because there are new paths opening up for us. Some of us may feel as though parts of us have died, but at the same time those parts of us are being reborn and we are going to recognize the opportunities with open and clear eyes. Many will feel as though they have been released from bondage with regards to relationship and work and these areas will open up for us in the coming months, in the most incredible ways.

We must always trust the part of us that is all knowing. There has to be an integration of consciousness, we must wake up to the truth that each of us is a creator and co-creator. It is time for all to begin to use both logic and intuition to help us to see the world around us; to perceive the world as it really is rather than how it appears to be. This next year will be about finding balance. This is the perfect time to integrate our spiritual nature with our physical nature. Our spiritual and physical 3D aspects “hold two polarities that when balanced and integrated birth love and compassion through creativity and healing.” Healing comes when all aspects of what we have been resisting come into balance. As a result we become more whole, more balanced. Let this be a time to connect our human and divine aspects, because our evolution depends on it. I believe it is paramount to remember that the relationships we have to ourselves and with all of those around us is what is most important. Waking up and becoming aware of the world around us, and not just beginning to notice its fractures but finding the humility within to care enough to want to help, is what in fact will facilitate the change so many of us desire.

Recently I came across countless stories of persons that had preformed heinous acts on themselves and others, only to find out that these individuals had been sick, mentally ill for years without anyone seeing to it that they seek the help needed. When we as a people fail or when insurances, large corporations and governments fail to provide aid for those mentally ill, it falls upon the innocent in one way or another. Working from within the mental health industry, I can tell you one of the main causes individuals are unable to receive the help they need is money. Insurances hold all the power and dictate who gets the help. Regardless of how ill someone is if the insurance companies cannot benefit they will not provide the help needed. I am not the first or the last to say it but the powers in charge use money as a means of control. Money is not the enemy, and any power of manifestation video or audio will explain this. It is more so how we have been conditioned to view and use money that has led us to believe this. Let this be the year we reevaluate the world around us and all the people and living creatures who inhabit it, our programed beliefs with relationships with money, abundance, prosperity and most importantly let this be the time to reevaluate our relationship with ourselves and our intentions so that we may become aligned with our true purposes in life and love. What is a good way to start? If you are someone in need of support, support another. If your desire is to be loved, love others. If you want to be heard, listen to others and finally if you wish to receive, give to others. In adopting these practices we exercise the intention within ourselves and attract it to us just the same. Once we have peace within ourselves the manifestation of unconditional love, prosperity, peace, and balance fills us, allowing it to overflow to all others.

I read about these wonderful ideas online and I am sharing them in hopes that you may consider them as well. I have decided to write 5 things I have left behind in 2012 for the betterment of my mental and physical growth. As well, I have a mason jar for 2013 and when something good happens to me, I will write it on a piece of paper and put it in the jar to read for the next year. So many of us forget, yet when we are reminded of all the good that has come our way we become surprised that we hadn’t remembered. This is a great exercise for the spirit and mind to keep present all the wonderful things that make us happy. When we are present in the moment with gratitude regardless of our current situations, more of what brings us joy and happiness will flow to us.

In this next year, may you manifest an abundance of love, joy, prosperity and peace, more so then ever before!

The following are some links to people and pages that helped to inspire this post, as well as provided the creative ideas:

** Healthy Vibrant You is a holistic health and wellness company. We help our clients set and achieve goals regarding their physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual health.**



** An artist, numerologist and sacred geometer dedicated to educating, uplifting and promoting the expansion of consciousness through the study and practice of Numerology and Sacred Geometry.**



Love and light to all,
~ Jennifer

Chasing Grace.




Some answers we seek come to us when we’ve surrendered, when searching is no longer an option and we find ourselves on our knees without an ounce of physical strength or the will of spirit to move.  It is through these times seemingly, between our surrender and silence we come to understand what it is we truly need.

 What about those few questions we have, the recurring ones that seem to stunt us emotionally from time to time?  And is this ever truly the case or are we leaving the questions unanswered for our own psychic purposes?  There are times where the anguish felt followed by our unanswered questions is too much to bare, and yet even through our exhaustion, relinquishing the fight to uncover the answers we so desperately seek to our long awaited questions, is not an option.  It is in these moments that time seems to slow down, if not then stop all together and the quest for answers consumes us.  We may go about our tasks and days but we are constantly internalizing and doing what we can with what we have to find some peace.

Most may disagree, but for me there is poetry in realizing a number of years later, a once thought to be mended heart is in fact only slightly repaired.  Suddenly and sometimes unexpectedly something occurs so many years later that leaves us scurrying to collect the pieces we left behind in our emergence to fix what was fractured in order to move on.  We may not know it at the time but we do this sometimes as a quick fix-me-up, a half assed job at best in order for us to keep going, to accomplish all the things we need to in order to get to where are presently.  Yet what seemingly and most commonly happens with these situations is the unstable thin film we laid over those open wounds some time ago rips and the wounds are once again exposed.  Now what?  Because from the floodgates flow all of those ancient emotions that are all too familiar and once again, undesired.

 I find the difference is we may have thought all those years ago the feelings were unwanted but were they truly?  Because whether we caused the pain or not we sat in it, until we could no longer take it and did what we had to do to move on, or so we thought.  However, this time, the feelings and situation that surround what broke us in the first place, is truly not wanted.  How do I know this?  If it comes back, it isn’t finished.  We repeat our hurts in order to learn our lessons and if there is a recurring pain then there is some unfinished business that will need to be taken care of.  The good news?  We were different people back then, when it all started and these questions were formed.  And so the pain and emotional turmoil we held ourselves in back then no longer serves us, it no longer fits.  The beauty of this?  The choice to throw it away and finally learn our lessons presents itself clearly.  The time to truly mend those old wounds can happen almost instantaneously.  It is in these moments where the answers we have so longingly and desperately seek lie.  This is where both the end and beginning exist, when the cycle is complete and has come full circle.  It may take a day, a week or a month but it won’t take much longer then that because everything has changed. Including us.  The people we are today are emotionally, mentally and physically unable to hold those old patterns, those old energies.

I’ve learned from my own experiences that life’s most meaningful lessons come out of the moments where we are most confused, when we are in most need and it feels like we’ll never have the answers we desire.  It is through our breaking point, that we have a choice to make and it is to acknowledge the answers we so desire have always and forever slept comfortably in the lessons we refused to learn.  Regardless of how painful the truth is, through our epiphany, our moment of truth, we begin to feel as though we have been saved by an act of grace.  When really, the answers always appear after we have done the work from the inside out, and no sooner.  The answers we never thought we would have come to us when we are ready to accept them.  Sometimes these are answers that bring the most pain and discomfort but know that whether it feels like it in the moment, the hurt is temporary.  When we can finally come to terms with our own truth, when we close the door and mend the wounds to the biggest fractures in our lives, it can only mean one thing; some incredible and beautiful happenings are about to follow.

Love and light,
~ Jennifer

Photo credit: © 2012 Jennifer Santaniello

If Lincoln Could Speak What Would He Say?



Well, if you are fortunate enough to live in New York City, you could find out for yourself.  The southern plaza section of Union Square Park is home to the Lincoln Statue Monument and from now until Sunday December 9th 2012, it appears Lincoln will have a lot to say, and for all the right reasons.  The public art project “Abraham Lincoln: War Veteran Projection,” by Polish artist Krzysztof Wodizcko features a video projection onto the 142-year-old Lincoln statue, of Iraq and Afghanistan war veterans that have been interviewed for Krzysztof Wodizcko’s “The Veterans Project.”  Some of the projects focus lies within the psychological effects of war, not only on its solders but also to all of those directly connected to veterans who have experienced trauma, including us.   As well, the project touches upon wars political and social ties.   “The Veterans Project“ and Krzysztof Wodizcko’s “Abraham Lincoln: War Veteran Projection” brings to light the harsh truth that the trauma experienced by veterans and their families goes grossly unrecognized.

These veterans host a number of trauma induced mental disorders that would normally prevent them from being able to tell their stories with such depth, yet some how they found the strength enough to come forth.  They are survivors, telling their stories and whether they say it personally or not this is their plea, a plea for all to pay attention regardless of ones stance on war because it affects everyone and everything.   If you happen to be in New York City, you have until Sunday night to view this public art exhibit.   I went with some friends from school and was deeply moved.   Do yourselves a serious justice and see this exhibit in its entirety however possible.   Broaden your awareness and then spread it like wild fire.

The following videos are a few clips I have taken from Krzysztof Wodizcko’s public art exhibit “Abraham Lincoln War Veteran Projection” exhibit.”   Unfortunately, these clips do the public art exhibit absolutely no justice however, I feel it important to be able to present a glimpse into this project.


As well, I have included a video of Krzysztof Wodizcko being interviewed in 2010.   He mentions the start of “The Veterans Project,” which eventually led to the “Abraham Lincoln: War Veteran Projection.”

Love and light,

~ Jennifer

**Photo credit: Maria Niro on Vimeo.**