A Story of Light

♥ We are all conduits of light ♥

Month: April, 2012

Part of the Solution.

When I started to become more self-aware I naturally became more conscious of my thoughts.  I noted how my thoughts in connection with my words and my actions worked simultaneously to shape my reality and me.  Additionally I learned my thoughts, words and actions affected and continue to affect all of those around me.  Much like others I know, I learned that one the hard way.  Since then, I have vowed to make a conscious effort to bring as much positivity and light to my life and those lives around me.  I have noticed in life there are moments that shake our very foundation.  Sometimes these moments wake us up for a bit, but for those of us that are ready?  We are never the same.

While in college, one particular elective jumped out at me.  The title was ‘Affirming Diversity’ with Professor Lawrence Watson.  Growing up I was fortunate enough to live in a very culturally diverse community.  Even so, I was excited to take the course feeling as though I had a bit of an advantage. I realized two classes in that I had a lot to learn!  The combination of our family and friends, environment as well as our behavioral responses to experiences leads to our conditioning, which in turn helps to create our reality.  Until something or someone comes along and challenges that, we stay within that stream of consciousness.  What we are subject to has a huge part in determining our state of mind and awareness towards ourselves and towards those around us.  Until we reach that age where we feel comfortable taking over the reins, we are essentially sleep walking.  Even before this course, I had always taken an interest in social justice and equality regardless of the issues.  Much more so then those around me, some might even say to the extreme in certain situations.  I have always been told to get over it, that it is just the way the world is, but that isn’t the truth.  That is the way the world works for those particular individuals who believe it so.  My truth is, I have always had an unyielding determination to help people understand that we are all equal and come from the same place.

I’ve had one wake call after the other, always allowing me to take my truth and light that much further.  If you’re where I am at the moment, you’ll understand when I say such an awakening can be bittersweet.  We start to see everything as beautiful, as bright and just the way it should be.  We become appreciative even in life’s darkest moments, yet many around us are not seeing it that way. People are still being so negative, condescending and manipulative.  They are lying, loyalty is practiced only when convenient and racisms and biases still exist, seen and unseen.  It’s not easy, but I choose to take it one day at a time. If someone has something negative to say about me or someone else, whether they feel it to be personal or impersonal, I try to bring up the lighter side of the situation.  And this applies to our closest friends and family as well, they have free will to think, feel and act as they wish and so do you.  If someone is bashing the character of another you are not obligated to agree just because you have a connection.  Sometimes when someone is being negative and cruel I will not say anything at all.  It took me a while to be able to do this because I felt guilty.  Even though I didn’t want to agree or join in I felt by not at least acknowledging what they were saying I would make them feel bad about themselves. But, What about the protection of my energy and my good intentions?  What about the guilt I would feel after adhering to such nasty or negative intentions and energy?  I have learned that it isn’t doing me or anyone else any good to comply with any form of negativity or injustice just because I feel I might hurt others feelings by not joining the pity party or bashing.  If I don’t challenge the wrong doing and negativity of others, if I am not constantly challenging those who believe they are superior, if I am not trying to be part of the solution, how will others get it?  How will they begin to understand and then how will things ever change?

Don’t be afraid to be who you are and never be afraid to fight for what you believe is right for yourself and for others even if it goes against the grain or everything you’ve been taught.  You are not alone.

When we are good to ourselves, when we become increasing good to those around us, we become a part of the solution.

☆ Shine on, you are all bright stars ☆

♥ All of my love and light ♥
~ Jennifer

The Beautiful Blogger Award

It is always an honor when I find myself nominated for an award by the souls I have come to value greatly.  Even though I have been blogging for only a short amount of time, I have come to value these souls way before they nominated me, because who they are and their insights are completely inspirational.  James, you are one of these souls.  Thank you SO much for the award!!!!  I am honored.

The rules for the Beautiful Blogger Award are:

1. Thank the one who nominated you by linking back.

2. Nominate five blogs.

3. Let your nominees know by leaving a comment on their sites.

4. Copy and paste the award image on your site.

So, here are my 5 nominations:

1. http://thewayhome.me

2. http://currierose.wordpress.com/inspiration

3. http://roots2blossom.wordpress.com

4. http://ordinarylisa.wordpress.com

5. http://minimalistlifestyle.wordpress.com


♥ Namaste ♥

~ Jennifer

Relationship Villains.

Everything we may need comes to us at precisely the right moment.  One of many affirmations provided for me included the day I read about relationship villains.  I started to make the connections and my spirit made peace with wars raging inside of myself regarding some of the relationships I’ve had and continue to have.  When I say relationships, it includes any and all kinds.  In fact, it also helped me to understand my own role as a relationship villain that I have agreed to play, for the sake of others spiritual growth as well as my own.

The first time I ever read about the meaning of a relationship villain, was in ‘Raising Our Vibrations for the New Age” by author Sherri Cortland.  I remember feeling emotionally exhausted with the relationships around me at the time.  I felt misunderstood, betrayed and completely stumped as to what to do about it all.  It turns out, not only was I supposed to go through every single one of those emotions, but I myself, before this incarnation set it up so that I could go through all of this, to learn the lessons I came here to learn.  To break the walls of disappointment and fear not only from this life, but walls that had been built decades and even centuries before.  As for the souls that have hurt and disappointed me the most?  In truth, are my most kindred spirits.  As Sherri so eloquently put it,

“Relationship Villains are entities who are our closest universal friends when we are on the other side of the veil, but for this incarnation, they have volunteered to play the part of “the bad guy” to help us cross something important off of our spiritual “must learn” list for this incarnation. They might be people who simply annoy us, or even those we consider to be our so-called enemies. They create (or co-create) unpleasant situations that open windows of opportunity for us to learn and grow, or they may take action that forces us to stay on our chosen path. Either way, their purpose is to help us accomplish our learning/growth faster and in what may ultimately be a less dramatic or painful way. Relationship Villains can be anyone and you will find them everywhere. Look for them especially in romantic relationships, family relationships, and work relationships, but they will also turn up at school, at the grocery store, at the airport, the DMV, and anywhere you happen to be! They can be someone you have an on-going relationship with, or someone you interact just once or twice. When you learn the lesson, your relationship with your “relationship villain” will become much more palatable (this is usually the case when the “villain” is a family member) or your relationship will end because your mission together is over (as often happens with friends).”

I feel it important to express that even though we are here to learn specific lessons and created our blue prints prior to our incarnation, how we get to where we are going varies greatly because we have been given free will.  If you are presently in a relationship that is abusive mentally, physically or emotionally, then it is within your divine power to choose to love yourself enough to walk away regardless of what you feel the lesson this person and relationship is meant to teach you.   Everyone and every situation is a form of karmic relation, so ‘suffering’ to a degree is necessary for our spiritual evolution.  However, if the suffering gets in the way of our growth, if it leads to mental or physical discomfort or illness, then the suffering is in fact unnecessary and can be quite poisonous.  Before incarnating we create windows of opportunities, which may consist of those moments in time that will allow our decisions to change us forever.  This concept can be further explored in Sherri’s first book ‘Windows of Opportunity’.  In a abusive relationship, a person gives away their power, when you choose to take your power back you set the intention and action forth to the universe that you love and believe in yourself enough to finally break free, move forth, and possibly help countless others.

From as far back as I can remember I have always sensed that I do not belong here.  I have always felt that my conviction, efforts and loyalty have continuously gone unmatched.  As well, with my extreme sensitivity to the hurt and desperation that so many humans and animals endure daily, I would just keep telling myself there is no way I am meant to be here!  And if we feel we cannot trust those closest to us?  Then it helps to make all of those hurt and confused feelings become magnified.  The truth is we do belong here, we belong everywhere.  We are energy and we belong to the universe, wherever that may take us.  Learning about relationship villains allowed me to open up to forgiveness of everything I had been holding onto.  It allowed me to understand at a deep soul level why my relationships were the way they were and it also gave me the emotional freedom that I so desired, through forgiveness of others and most importantly myself.  I began to recognize all of my relationship villains and the moment I was able to do that, I began to look for the cycles with each and every particular soul.  What was the reoccurring issue or issues with these souls and why?  Once I discovered the cycles, I began to learn what it was I needed to know and then I chose for myself, consciously going forth whether my relationships with these souls were now going to positively affect my future, because if not, I had it within me to finally let go.

I know how it can feel, when you are working tirelessly at becoming who you are, or a better you and having those closest to you challenge you to the point of exhaustion.  I want to share with you something I wrote at a time of complete frustration, only because I feel it will help you to understand that we are all going through this together and that you are not alone.

“I finally get it.  It was never really about me.  What you said when I refused to listen to your negativity?

“It’s not even worth it, I give up, it’s too late and you are out of your mind.”

I am out of my mind?  For always giving 110%?  I am out of my mind for becoming the best person I know how to be?  I am out of my mind for refusing to believe I should be defined by my weight?  I am out of my mind for believing anything is possible?  I am out of my mind because I will never give up?  I am out of my mind because I refuse to believe marriage is the answer to everything?  I am out of my mind for refusing to believe money is the root of all evil and that it should dictate my future?  I am out of my mind because I have never cared what people have to say about me?  I am out of my mind for always trying to be the best friend anyone could ever wish to have?   I am out of my mind for who I have chosen to be?  I am out of my mind for working my ass off to hold a position at work where I am admired and respected?  I am out of my mind for wanting to continue my education and acquire an MA to become a therapist, so that I may help as many people as possible?  You’re right, I am out of my mind, for ever thinking any of this was ever about me.  Thank you, for always managing to drench a towel in your own insecurities only to whip me with it, because it’s made me into the light I am today.”


You would never know it but I was driven to write this about a person I love more then myself and always will.  I would give my last breath for them.  I will continue to love them regardless because they mean the world to me and I’ve realized that from a young age they had been conditioned to believe through life and it’s experiences that something in them wasn’t good enough.  They love me the only way they know how and I have decided for this particular soul, that it is good enough.  I love them enough to try and continue to allow them to see how beautiful they really are and always have been, even if it takes a lifetime.  You will always know the relationships you are meant to keep.  Once you become aware of your relationship villains and the challenges presented, regardless of how broken the relationships appear to be, remember that it is just another step along your journey, bringing you closer to where it is you are truly meant to be.

I have included some wonderfully informative links on ‘Relationship Villains’ below.  Enjoy!

♥ All of my love and light ♥


~ Jennifer





7×7 Link Award!!!!

7×7 Link Award!!!!

Thank you Currie for the award!  You are such a wonderful soul and I feel honored to be sharing this journey with you!

The rules for the 7 X 7 Link Award:

Give thanks and acknowledgements to the blogger who nominated you for this award
List 7 of your previous links in the following categories. Most Helpful, Most Popular, Most Beautiful Piece, Most Controversial, Most Surprisingly Successful, Most Underrated, Most Pride Worthy)
List 7 things about yourself.
Nominate 7 other bloggers for this award.

Here are my seven links:

– Most Popular:    https://astoryoflight.wordpress.com/2012/04/03/our-guardians/

– Most Beautiful Piece:   https://astoryoflight.wordpress.com/2012/04/06/sing-me-to-sleep-grandma/

– Most Controversial:  https://astoryoflight.wordpress.com/2012/04/19/our-awakening-and-twin-flame-reunions/

– Most Surprisingly Successful:  https://astoryoflight.wordpress.com/2012/03/29/no-one-can-stop-you-not-even-yourself/

– Most Pride Worthy:  https://astoryoflight.wordpress.com/2012/03/27/nevermind-i-found-what-i-needed-in-you-in-myself/

– Most Underrated:  https://astoryoflight.wordpress.com/2012/03/26/lessons-along-the-way-part-1/

– Most Helpful:  https://astoryoflight.wordpress.com/2012/04/03/our-guardians/

(I apologize for repeating any posts but I only just started my blog in March!)  (:

7 things about me:

1. I Believe that my true friendships are the very extension of my heart.  There is a difference between just listening to a friend and actually hearing what they have to say.

2. When I was very young, I used Thunderstorms as a way to talk to God.

3. I’ve kept a Journal since I was about 8.

4. Some of my favorite time periods with regards to History, Art and Design include Renaissance, Pre-Raphaelite Brotherhood, Baroque, Early Netherlandish painting, Rococo, Romanticism, futurism, Impressionism, Gothic , Art Nouveau, Abstract Expressionism, Contemporary Art, Edwardian, Victorian and Colonial.

5. I never knew what is was like to have to figure out who I wanted to be.  From before I can remember I was always creating, I have always been and will always be an Artist.

6. I’ve learned there is nothing anyone can say or do that could ever tear me down.  There is nothing anyone has that will ever be enough to disprove or take away the love and appreciation I have for myself.

7. I do not believe in any superior religion. Especially religions in which any other gender, race or religion is inferior.  I believe in a higher power, The Source.  You and you alone decide where you’re going and how long it takes to get there.  Religion, like everything else, serves it’s purpose.  But, I salute and respect those who are brave enough to ask why and question everything.

And the winners are…

1.  http://currierose.wordpress.com/

2.  http://knowthesphere.wordpress.com/

3.  http://shellyrwilson.wordpress.com/

Our Awakening and Twin Flame Reunions.

The Love of Souls
Jean Delville

I can pin point the day I consciously began the journey of my own awakening.   For me, it was intense, passionate, emotional, electrifying and perhaps maybe even a little freighting at first.  The realization that there are parts of us that exist outside of ourselves.   Not only do we get more then one go around at this journey we call life, but we are given centuries of them.   We could apply the belief that we are apart of everyone and everything we experience, yet it is possible nothing is as as heart swelling as the realization that our spirit is only a fraction of its former self.

“The ONE Soul,  which was originally whole,  began to separate and divide into smaller and smaller fragments of Itself over the ages.   This occurred so that we could eventually relate to one another as races,  nations,  and families,  or as individuals while in the physical universe of opposites.   As the splitting of the ONE occurred,  relationships were born.   And it is through relationships that we create opportunities to know ourselves,  to remember our divine origin,  to seek reunion and oneness with one another and eventually return to our Source.   The twin relationship plays a very important role in all of this,  as part of the divine,  cosmic plan. “

When I mention love and relationships to those of you who have yet to be introduced to the idea of Twin Flames,  your minds may automatically jump to the definition of a soulmate.   And to a large degree your initial reaction and feelings towards this topic will be largely based on your belief system towards love,  your life’s experiences in love and your working ideas of love as a whole.   However, please bare with me here,  and if at all possible hear me out.   In truth,  Twin Flames are not nearly the same as what most of us as a society have been conditioned to believe a soulmate relationship to be.   Twin Flame relationships differ greatly in that,  not only do they reflect and encompass pure,  limitless,  eternal selfless and charitable love,  but they help us to understand all the reasons we are alive today.   Even more so,  this reunion helps to explain who we are,  where we come from and what our journeys here are truly all about.

“The moment your soul was created it possessed male-female,  ying-yang polarity and energy.   The Source’s love for you made sure that these two complimentary forms of consciousness, the masculine and feminine,  would be bound together throughout eternity.   The two halves of one soul have been called twin souls, twin vibrations,  twin rays or twin flames.   Said another way,  you only have one twin aspect of your soul in the entire universe who vibrates at the same frequency of light that you do.   This is quite an awesome thought.   However,  the story is a bit more involved than this simple explanation.”

Before the age of 23,  a large part of me was asleep,  begging to be awakened.   Some people speak of a gradual progression into their awakening and some people attribute their awakenings to surviving traumatic events in their lives,  for example near death experiences.   Mine wasn’t nearly as physically traumatic,  but the events leading to my awakening regarding the Twin Flame reunion left me emotionally raw and full of unanswered questions.   After a failed love relationship I was left confused and I had refused to move forward without understanding,  why?   Or how life could seemingly be so cruel as to bring such happiness only for it to be ripped away,  whether it was by my actions or the actions of another.   I wanted answers!   I refused to let go until I could understand what all of this was about,  what was the point?   It felt as though there were pieces missing.   I was forced to live a life without the person I had grown to love the most and even more so I was forced to live a life with so many questions that I had absolutely no conscious answers to.   I began to work and research feverishly into what makes us tick,  what the true meaning of love is and how and why we see and feel love in all of it’s possibilities.   That is when I stumbled upon the term ‘Twin Flame’.   A part of me woke up that day, the part that was waiting so patiently to awaken from its restless slumber. Everything began to make sense. My hurt was bringing me deeper and closer to myself and all of its fragments, including my Twin Soul.

“Awakening to our true spiritual nature takes us on a inner journey that leads to the opposite of separation, which is reunion.   As you can well imagine,  reunion brings with it feelings of love,  joy,  bliss and ecstasy.   At that moment,  the soul begins to crave oneness with its Source.   Part of this hunger will be satisfied by reunion with our twin.   From what I read,  this is when the journey home to our Source begins in earnest.

Our spiritual awakening will eventually inspire us to question,  and then cause us to discard, the false beliefs we have about traditional relationships,  which are primarily ego driven and fear based.   We will discover that, in order to have a lasting, fulfilling and meaningful partnership, the positive energy of unconditional love will have to replace the negative influence of the ego.

Once twins begin to think and feel this way they are setting the stage for reunion.”

Long before my awakening,  in high school I was driven to write something,  a poem of sorts.  I had been journaling from a very young age but something felt different about this piece.   I hadn’t any specific idea in mind but from as early as I can remember I have always felt profoundly loved and protected.   As if I had guardians,  and yet some aspects of it felt more intense like a love you receive from someone you’ve fallen in love with,  eternally.   I would have these moments where I would feel this deep love with no explanation has to how or why.   I was lucky enough to have the incredible love of my family and friends yet this was very different.   I couldn’t see where or who it was coming from but I could feel it around me,  always.

“So,  each being does have a Twin Flame,  unique and individual to you.   However,  this Twin is not someone outside of yourself.   Your Twin Flame is an integral part of your own energy field that is and has always been with you — before, during and after your life in a body.   Even though you may not see or feel this being at this moment,  you have never been apart from your Twin Flame, nor can you be.   You were created together and you are the same energy,  eternally one.”

As time would go on I would return to this writing piece I started in high school and add some words here and there.   It wasn’t until I experienced my first real lost love that I felt compelled to complete it.   Years later on my quest for answers,  I found them and I continue to everyday.  Funny enough,  my poem found it’s ending long before I had the wisdom to completely understand what it was really all about.  Now, I finally understand it’s true meaning.  This is what was created:

You And I

From a place where only love exists,
Void of time and space,
Came the sudden and rapid creation of light.
Simultaneously energy was formed,
Only to be split in two and forced apart.
Thrown to separate sides of the Universe,
These two energies were filled with soul and given life.
Placed in each lifetime,
They knew they had to find one another.
Both knowing the search started long before
They could ever understand.
Throughout time they have succeeded in their searches.
Finding each other as energy returning to the universe,
Making it whole again.
You will know when these Two find each other,
Because it is as though you can feel the Universe
Breathe in deep sighs of relief.
Time or a life without each other would result in torment,
For these two souls.
Neither will ever truly live without the other.
This is the story of their creation.
This is the story of You and I.

My intention for writing this particular blog is to bring awareness and shed some light not only on our Twin Flame Reunions,  but where is it we come from and who we really are collectively.   Regardless of ones beliefs,  I feel this reaffirms that in order to come into our fullest potential in life and love,  we must completely love ourselves enough to choose what is best for us and all humanity,  all forms of life around us,  constantly.   We all have our moments and situations that challenge everything we believe ourselves to know,  yet when we keep to our intentions we are continuously sending out that signal of love that is needed to carry us through.   There are times in our lives when we realize precisely where is it we are meant to be and what it is we are supposed to be doing.   I believe it is a part of my many responsibilities to bring Twin Flame awareness to as many people as possible,  and I knew that the day I was reminded of it myself.

Regardless of what you take from my message here,  remember,  we are equal to the love we put out,  so love as you wish to be loved and that love will come back to you in more ways then one.

The quotes included in this post are from some of the links below,  please click on the links I have provided and enjoy the following information below about Twin Flame Reunions and our divinity!




Link http://www.harusami.com


♥All of my love and light♥


~ Jennifer

© 2012 Jennifer Santaniello

Sing me to sleep grandma?

Mary Venezia Rivelli couldn’t hold much of a tune, yet that didn’t stop me from asking her for as long as she was alive, to sing me to sleep.  In fact, my grandmother singing to me is one of the fondest memories I have.  So much so that I myself intend to do the same for my own children and my children’s children someday.

Her favorite songs to sing to me were ‘it’s a sin to tell a lie’ by Fats Waller and ‘A – You’re Adorable’ preformed by Perry Como.

When I was being fresh she would tell me ‘you’re going to miss me when I’m gone, you watch!’.   What happens when you tell a 15 year old that?  Well, I agreed with her, with a light heart and a smile.   But there is nothing light about the presence and feelings of loss, especially when it hits right where you love the most.

Life is so precious and it’s so important that we recognize what we have, when we have it.  Sometimes we become so conditioned and instead of appreciating the love we receive we begin to expect that level of great love from those people in our lives that give it so selflessly and freely.  However, when they are gone we are left with the harsh realization that true happiness lies in the amount of love we are able to give in our everyday, not just when it’s convenient.

I feel blessed to have come to this realization long before my grandmother passed.  My grandmother and I told each other how much we loved each other everyday,  up until she drew her last breath.  But that only came with age and understanding, as I grew up to realize how much my grandmother had been through.  She worked through the war and waited for the love of her life, Pat, to make it home safely.  He did, but not without being shot a couple of times first.  Loss touched her life early with her brother and parents.  Only later in life to have not one but two open heart surgeries.  As well, the loss of her older sister and her one and only true love, Patsy.  Even through all of this my grandmother remained a strong, wonderful, lively, smart, funny,  good hearted woman.  She would have been 88 today.

Cherish those that are closest to you, those that show and give their love without limitations or expectations.  Know what you have while you have it so that instead of feeling regret, you smile with a heart full of knowing that you loved them as completely as you could have while you had them  (:

♥ Happy Birthday Grandma ♥

♥ Above all, I miss your hugs and kisses the most ♥

© 2012 Jennifer Santaniello

My first two awards!

Thank you Anne (http:// enjoymyadventure.wordpress.com), for nominating me, finding my blog and allowing me into your world.  With you in mine, I continue to shine bigger and brighter everyday!!!! ♥ ♥

7 things about myself

1. I think contemporary and interpretive dance are some of the most beautiful and profound ways to express oneself.  With the love I have for dance, I was definitely a dancer in a past life.

2. I tend to become sensitive at the most inappropriate moments, but you’ll never know it.

3. I had a crush on Mickey Rourke after seeing ‘Wild Orchid’ for the first time, I couldn’t have been older then 9.  And now? I’m a fool for men who can express their souls through words or a paintbrush.

4. When my cousin Lisa needed someone to act as a student for her in front of her professor and fellow classmates at Berklee College of Music, I went and stood in front of a bunch of singers and musicians and sang ‘In Your Eyes’.  I think it was probably one of the most ballzy things I’ve ever done.

5. The first time I fell in love it caught me by surprise.  In fact, in our first encounter we had more of an argument then a conversation.  I wanted to punch him before I wanted to kiss him.  Falling in love didn’t feel like an arrow through the heart but more like a .44 at point blank.

6. I’ve been hit over the head by a hammer, rushed to the hospital with a play-form stuck up my nose and I’ve had 14 stitches just below my knee that has left a decent size scar.

7. I know what people are thinking and feeling before they have a chance to express it.  Whether you are in front of me or thousands of miles away, it comes in the same form and just as strong.  I can also read Tarot Cards and have a strange fascination with Forex Trading.

I have chosen the following nominees because they all write from their core and depth of heart.  I am better for having encountered each and every one of them.


♥ All of my love and light ♥

 ~ Jennifer

And my nominees are:

http:// enjoymyadventure.wordpress.com







These are the rules once you’ve been nominated:

You must thank the person who has given you the award.
Copy the logo and place it on your blog.
Link the person who has nominated you for the award.
Name 7 things about yourself that people might find interesting.
Nominate 7 other Versatile Blogger and Very Inspiring Blogger Award.
Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.
Leave a comment on each of the blogs to let them know they have been nominated.

Our Guardians.

My last post was about realizing the depth of power and strength we have within us to become exactly who it is we know we are meant to be.  In fact, the true meaning behind the post was that regardless of how steep the climb, all pathways lead to where it is we need to be, it is just a matter of time, action, patience, trust and the will to believe it so.  When these important aspects become harmonious, any challenges will turn to life lessons and we begin to find ourselves working from within our dreams as apposed to outside of them.

What I didn’t touch upon in my last post though, is the guidance we are all continuously receiving.  Even for those of you that regularly feel alone on this journey of yours, you are never truly alone.  I believe it to be so important that whenever we receive help, we recognize and thank our source of guidance and pay it forward however we can.  I’ve done this for years unconsciously and I’d bet anything you’ve done the same.

I can be as stubborn as they come.  It took me years, I mean years to get to the point where I asked for help, but I can remember it clear as day.  It was a little over 9 months ago and I was at the end of my rope.  I had exhausted every emotional, mental and physical avenue, yet nothing seemed to be working out.  I felt stuck, weighed down, helpless and as though those around me were unable to understand me energetically and spiritually.  One bright and sunny Saturday I felt an urgency to go out into the yard and sit.  No reading, no music, no planting, just sitting.  Something I had regauraly done for years but lost that part of me that was so connected to nature.  I sat and let the sun hit me for a while, then I did it.  I asked for help, it was more like a plea actually.  I didn’t ask for a new job or the love of my life or even money, I just asked for help, for guidance.  I asked for something, anything, a sign, and a nudge in the right direction!  In my emotional despair, I had forgotten that I have been nudged in the right direction this whole time, we all are.  But if we don’t hit that low, then what else will catapult us into action?  What else will force us to question everything and make the adjustments we are fated to make?  I sat there in the yard for a little while longer and then went along with my day as usual.

 Within that next week or so something magnificent happened.  I stumbled upon Sherri Cortland’s Book ‘Raising our vibrations for the new age’.  The colors of the cover and the title drew me in and I had to read it.  Well, in reading the first two chapters, it was as if the floodgates had opened!   The book alone was assisting me in heightening my vibrations but then I started receiving help from every direction and in every area of my life.  As I was half way through Sherri’s book I stumbled upon ‘The Three Waves of the Volunteers and the New Earth’ by  Dolores Cannon.  I knew in my heart I was supposed to read this book immediately after Sherri’s.  Between the combinations of the two I had been reminded of my own infinite power.  At this time, not only was I getting signs aggressively but also I was having the ‘tools’ I needed practically handed to me.  I would go to bed each night and wake up every morning with a smile and a feeling of pure happiness because I felt as though I now had the answers I needed, and I still do everyday.

I was so inspired I decided to write Sherri Cortland, letting her know how greatly she and her book had influenced me.  Not even two days later she wrote back!  She was everything I thought her to be and more, bringing true meaning to the term  Lightworker.  Through Sherri I met spiritual teacher and life enhancer Shelly Wilson who encourages individuals to live an authentic life.  Shelly is a Usui/Karuna Reiki Master as well.  Shelly has been a guiding force of light for me and continues to do so everyday through her radio shows “Believe in Believing” and “Journey into Consciousness”.

Since the moment I decided to ask for help and received all that followed with open arms I have quit smoking, went from vegetarian to vegan allowing my body to become as physically healthy as it is spiritually and mentally, took on a new responsibility and title at work, have been accepted to university for my MA, and most importantly?  I found everything I have ever needed, in myself.  I found that everything I wanted was right here the whole time, waiting on me.  The things I mentioned above are life changing but the truth is they only manifested when I found peace within myself.  We become the most valuable asset to ourselves and to the universe when we find our peace within.  As well, there is a rhythm that is found, a harmony in every day.  The second I provided myself with the help I needed, I was able to leap ahead and begin this life I have so longed to live of providing others with the same help, allowing them to acquire the ‘tools’ and confidence needed to achieve their highest potential spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally.  That feeling of being so weighed down, confused and helpless is replaced with an overflow of energy and feelings of effortlessness.  I am not saying life becomes perfect!  We are not here to live ‘perfect’ lives, however instead of living in doubt, each day is lived within a place of knowing, and that is where dreams come true.

My purpose in writing this post is so that you understand you are never truly alone.  We all have our guides and our guardians, some we can see and some we choose not to.  I’ve been lucky enough to find those that have lifted me right when I needed it the most, but I believe only because I had the strength to know when to ask for help.  I was so afraid, but I am here to tell you the second you let that fear go and ask fully from your heart, you will receive the help you need.  You are looked after and loved, constantly.  And if you are at a point in your life where that is just too hard to believe, know that I care and my hope for you is eternal.

♥ All of my love and light ♥

~ Jennifer

Below is a list of inspirational people and writings that helped me immensely!


Raising Our Vibrations for the New Age 

by Sherri Cortland 

Link to Sherri Cortland’s Column for The Examiner!

Sherri Cortland’s Website!

The Three Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth 

by Dolores Cannon

Many Lives, Many Masters: The True Story of a Prominent Psychiatrist, His Young Patient, and the Past-Life Therapy That Changed Both Their Lives

 by Brian L. Weiss

How to Avoid a Stupid Man: A Woman’s Guide to Attracting Her Soul Mate

 by L.E. Coleman

I’m Spiritual Dammit!: How to Keep Your Feet on the Ground and Your Head in the Stars

by Jenniffer Weigel

The Soulmate Secret


Arielle Ford

A Course in Weight Loss


Marianne Williamson

Shelly Wilson

Believe in Believing Talk Radio Show Link!
Journey Into Consciousness Talk Radio Show Link!
Stop Existing and Start Living! Shelly Wilson’s 28-day on-line course Link!
Shelly Wilson Reiki Master Facebook Page Link!

The Shadow Effect

by Debbie Ford
The Shadow Effect trailer link!

Darrin Owen

Best-Selling Author & Spiritual Teacher
Darrin Owen’s Website Link

Steffany S. Barton

Steffany S. Barton’s Website Link!

Steffany S. Barton’s Website Link!

Steffany S. Barton’s Facebook Page Link!

Paige Hall-Ferraro

Paige Hall-Ferraro’s Website Link!

Paige Hall-Ferraro’s Full Circle Wellness  Healing Facebook Page!

What The Bleep Do We Know!? Trailer Link!

Spirit Guides, Angelic Guardians, and Angels Information Link!